You know that moment when you're non-chalantly cradling yourself in the corner of your bedroom, in the dark, shaking hysterically, LIKE A CRAZY PERSON, and suddenly he walks through the door and you sort of panic because you know that this looks really bad - horrifying actually - like a snippet out of The Conjuring. And you don't quite know how he's going to react but you can't shake yourself out of it, and anyway if you just get up act like nothing was completely disturbing about that, holy shit you WILL actually look like a lunatic!
Not to mention, who in their life has ever hit rock bottom gracefully? No one, ever!
So you're here.
Where I was.
What do you do now?
When you feel so overwhelmingly anxious you can't bring yourself to leave the house?
When you can't stop worrying endlessly about your relationship?
When you don't actually know why you're so unhappy or why you feel helpless to do anything about it?
What do you do when you're so burdened by inertia, you can't see straight?
Make a promise.
To yourself.
Not a goal or an objective with a trillion micro details.
A promise.
That no matter how bad it gets, no matter how emotional, confusing, challenging or surprising it becomes - you're going to break out of it.
You're gonna get the old you back.
And then keep that promise to yourself.
Work at it.
Dedicate yourself to you.
Re-explore who you are, who you used to be.
Change your surroundings, your environment.
Whatever isn't making you happy right now, let it go, get rid of it.
Figure out what exhilarates you, gives you butterflies and makes you snort-laugh till your ribs sting.
Go on an epic adventure with yourself & watch as you slowly but surely change back into the vibrant, bubbly, happy-go-lucky person you used to be - with a few extra improved add-ons I might add.
Focus on you, on how you feel about yourself, your love for your life.
You'll stumble, many times in fact, that's certain.
But keep going, you'll get there.
