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There's something you don't know about me...

Something that would probably shock you if you knew because it's something I haven't allowed myself to expose until now. It's something very personal and close to my heart and it's only been until recently that the wounds have finally started to heal.

Vulnerable doesn't even begin to scratch the surface of how I'm feeling right now. But I truly believe that you need to know this and that it will help you even more on this journey to inner vibrance that you're about to begin.

I want you to know that whatever you're going through, whether it's average, bad, shit or life threatening - you have the power to turn it all around for the better. It will get better, I promise you.

The last two years of my life have been somewhat challenging. I haven't really been able to talk about them with anyone until now because it took this much time to work through the baggage I'd been hauling.

A year prior, I was at an all time low in life. I had reached the end of my fling of miserable relationships, I was directionless chasing a dream that was slowly becoming a burden and my life was pure chaos with little peaks of happiness during weekends of binge drinking.

Around the same time, my stunningly gorgeous mother had planned a trip to Europe for my 21st (How amazing is my mother? Seriously). It was here in Europe that my inner vibrance journey started.

When I returned home I had gained something that couldn't be explained, it just was. Things were different, life was incredible and one night a woman changed my life when she waltzed up to me on a dance floor and complimented me on my 'vibrance'.

What you don't know is that after a while that vibrancy changed.

Getting course corrected by the universe..

It all started when I met my AMAZING man. However, I thought he was an absolute douche on our first meeting. He was loud, obnoxious and totally into me so OF COURSE I didn't like him.

I was an independent girl with her finger on the world and I could do whatever I wanted when I wanted because I didn't have to listen to nobody!

Although I was vibrant and independent I had become selfish and careless when it came to men.

The universe was about to shake things up! (I've learned that when you've been 'off-course' for too long - the universe will course correct you whether you want it or not.)

He challenged me in SO MANY ways that I literally became a stroppy tantrum throwing teenager once again. He called me out on my shit, he confronted me when I didn't wanna talk and he loved me even when I didn't deserve it.

Vibrant or not, I still had maaany demons I had to deal with.

Hitting bottom..

Shoot to mid year, me and my bestie had planned a trip to Melbourne with our newly acquired boyfriends. (But secretly the trip was actually just for me and my bestie because we wanted to go away together).

That all changed through miscommunication. Dates were changed and she was heading off to Melbourne with just her bf. I was angry and pissed (like a stroppy teenager once again) that she didn't tell me. But the real truth is that I was pissed that I had been replaced by a guy.

From that day I was too stubborn to admit anything or talk things through. I ignored her and wouldn't reply to any of her messages, so that was our friendship over.

Shoot to a few months later my amazing job wasn't all that amazing anymore. New management had taken over and I started getting harassed and bullied by people who were over 30 years older than me.

I was called a whore, a bitch and I was pushed over a couple of times. And worst of all I had to take them to court for it all (which I DO NOT recommend to anyone, it is not worth the damage of your spirit!)

I was so hurt, damaged and broken. And to seal the deal I isolated myself, I didn't see my friends for months and I turned to food for comfort. (Wow, can I pack on some weight or what!?!)

What started out as an amazing year turned to absolute shit.

This was bottom.

Sometimes the only way to light is through darkness..

The new year had arrived and although my spirit, my mind and my body was wounded, something else was guiding me to change things (kind of like how something guided you to read this.)

I quit (my last ever) job in retail. I decided to never go back to shit pay, stressful work conditions and no recognition. I decided to partially move back home with mum. (I live half a week with her in my home town and half a week with my bf in the city). I made myself buy books that would help improve my life, I tried and tested the exercises and techniques and I made a promise to myself that I would commit to this and keep at it no matter what happens.

Well, all I can say is that 2012 has been a very colourful year of contrast. Inner battles raged on and became more violent as I shone light on them. Repressed feelings, emotions and memories attacked at my most vulnerable moments. I laughed, I cried, I grieved for my best friend. I let guilt run me for a while and then anger took over for a bit there as well.

I went to hell and back several times.

But all through that I kept my promise to myself, no matter how painful it got, and now I am strong (really strong) mentally, emotionally and physically. I know my worth & I OWN it and most importantly I 100% love myself exactly the way that I am right now.

I can talk about this now because I have healed, I have done the work and it no longer defines me. I'm not ruled by these experiences and they no longer have a hold over me.

I want you to know that no matter where you are in life, whether you're in a mindset of scarcity, you're heartbroken, you're lost, you're low on self esteem & self sabotaging. Whether you're being bullied, dealing with depression, blaming yourself, feeling guilty or on the verge of breaking down. Or even if you just want a change - YOU CAN DO IT.

You can change your life and become the most positive, loving and vibrant version of yourself. You can heal your pain, overcome your demons and make peace with your inner battles. You can be happy, really happy, you can live with passion and aliveness and you create a life that you never even imagined was possible. It all starts with YOU.

In this eBook, we will get raw and strip down. You will learn everything I have gone through and the steps I took to work through my shit, my inner-battles and demons. You will have your own set of tasks to complete in each section, some will resonate with you, others won't so much. Do what works for you and discard the rest.

You will be challenged, you will want to give it up at some point because it seems like too much effort. Remember, this is the ego trying everything it can to bring you back to feeling worthless. Keep on it. You only live once and now that you've got this ebook things are gonna start changing.

If I can do it I sure as hell know you can too.

Let's make it ridonkulous shall we?

Elise xo

How I Listen to My Inner Guidance (& How You Can Connect With Yours)

When I was about 15, I got my first taste of spirituality in the form of psychic, magic, tarot and spirit guides. I still have a couple of tarot decks to prove it!

[Rider Waite > can't go wrong with traditional, Doreen Virtue's Angel Tarot Cards > perfect for beginners and Thoth Tarot Deck > better for the advanced, these have quite a dark energy.]

I loved that shit. I even learned how to do tarot readings. I think I read for two people and I got a lot of stuff 'right' but it was a lot of work and to be honest it kinda scared the shit outta me.

I was on the search for guidance and wisdom. I wanted to find my place in the world and I wanted to be a part of something more meaningful than maths homework and who hooked up with who at a random party I wasn't invited to over the weekend.

In my studies, I was taught a lot about spirit guides and how you have maaaaany different ones + extras come and go over time. Like around that time till I was about 18 I had a beautiful woman who had the most mesmerizing green eyes and the longest, shinest brunette hair I'd ever seen. She was always around when I went through challenges (and let me tell you... there were A LOT of challenges).

Well, she's gone now, and now there's this dude called... well I can let you know how our little convo went the other day. This is how my inner guidance likes to work...

Picture this: I'm sitting on a concrete park bench in what seems like wine country overlooking a large paddock with about 5 auburn coloured horses. It's sunset and I can hear the birds singing goodnight to other birdy friends in trees nearby. There's distant voices of children playing outside before their parents call them in for dinner, a low rumble of the 5 o'clock traffic on their way home and the air has a calm almost zen-like sound whizzing through the air.

I just had an argument with my man, I feel like shit and I have every right to because it was my fault. I look out over the paddock and quietly ask myself in the back of my mind... "What do I do?"

Suddenly this voice comes out of nowhere, "You talk to me."

"What do I call you?"

"Elmo."

"Elmo......"

"Trust me, you're gonna remember me."

"Okay..."

"How do you feel?"

"Awful. I just sabotaged that whole experience."

"Oh right, so you're only human after all."

"But I should have known better, I do this every single time."

"And what do you do every single time you do this?"

"...Run away......"

"Okay, so maybe it's time to try a new angle?"

"How?"

"Well, getting out to clear your head and breathe some fresh air is always good for the soul. You get so cooped up on that computer of yours you forget to come here and smell the scent on the air and listen to the stillness. Running away from your problems is the quick fix to a deeper problem. It takes courage and perseverance to go back into the fire and communicate. But you know that that's the only way for you because you have built so much trust and respect into this relationship you would be letting yourself down. You know you can do this, you know you will."

"Yeah, you're right."

Boom!

This is how my inner guidance works and I love it this way. Because the truth is, I believe that the wisdom and messages I receive are from deep within myself. Everything there is to know, I know already. It just so happens that my way of delivering those messages to myself are in the form of putting a name and face to the message. I like the idea of 'something else' out there that's got my back. Whatever it is be it the universe, higher self, inner guidance or spirit guides. It's all the same.

So whether you're thinking "Holy shit, this girl is a nutbar." or "That is so cool! I wanna learn how to do that!" here are a couple of ways you can start connecting with your inner guidance.

+ Find a Peaceful Place

When I used to actively seek guidance, I would always head to one of my favourite parks in all of Auckland and find a lovely park bench situated among a beautiful rose garden. Listening to the birds and the water fountain was so peaceful and I felt I could easily connect with myself there. Do you have a peaceful place? If so where is it? Search for a peaceful place that suits you.

+ Calm Your Mind & Listen

Guidance can't come to you if your stressing about something or your too busy facebooking. Take time to rest your thoughts and just listen to the silence. Try not to think about anything, just get lost in the moment of silence and see what happens.

+ Ask a Question

While you're listening to the silence, send out a wee question to test the waters. Sometimes the answer is immediate, sometimes it takes a while and sometimes it doesn't come until a few days later. I always tend to get immediate answers, as if I'm talking to a friend. But if I desperately want a response, I have to wait until I am calm and connected.

+ Look for Signs

This is another fun thing I like to do when I'm driving. I'll be like "Yo Universe! Can you give me a sign about this." And I won't actively look but something will stand out to me more than usual. I might have seen it a million times but this time in particular there's something on it I need to see and I get my answer.


When I was first starting out, it took a little practice but very quickly it becomes second nature and you can do it whenever you want. Just another muscle to work out :P

Elise xo

Girl, Stop Hating Yourself Right Now!

Over the weekend I had the most delicious + heated conversation with a new friend about self love and body image. My new friend was telling me how much she wanted to work with younger females and help them with their body image issues.

I was telling her about an experience I had a few months ago. I was browsing (stalking) around on facebook and I noticed an update from my younger sister. She's in her tweens and at that total awkward transition stage that we all go through when going from child to teen.

She was fb-covo-bombing her own picture with another friend. All I remember was:

"You're so pretty but I'm ugly."
"No way, you're prettier and I'm super ugly. I can't even get a boyfriend."
"Whatever! You are gorgeous. I'm dumb, fat and ugly.."

It literally went like this for a good 20 minutes and as you could imagine it frustrated the FUCK crap out of me.

Not because of the unknown psychological damage these two girls are doing to themselves on a daily basis, not because of the hateful words they're poisoning their minds with and not even because of their backward attention seeking methods but because I used to have this exact same conversation with my friends when I was in high school!!!! 

So that means in the space of 10 years with apple dominating technology, fashion changing rapidly, more option, foods, animals, businesses, money and whatever - there still hasn't been much of a change in educating our younger women about personal empowerment.

That to me is fucking disgraceful.

We take that awful self hatred into our late teens (and we know this is the worst place to feel like this), then it comes with us into our 20's and if we didn't sort it out there, into our 30's and so on..

I don't know about you, but to my new friend and I - this is a HUGE concern!

This has to change. But how the hell do we stop this pattern?

One step at a fucking time, that's how.

Girl, listen to me.

No more will you say, think, write or feel another loathing word to yourself.

No more will you buy into the bullshit of poisoned self-hating mediocrity.

No more will you look into a mirror filled with shame and hatred.

No more will take on other peoples hurtful projections.

No more will you cry yourself to sleep alone in despair.

No more will you look for love, approval & yourself in somebody else.

No more will you put your happiness last!

You are a star, a goddess, an angel.

You are a motherfucking diva!!!

You are powerful.

You are unique.

You are loved.

You can DO this!

You can change your life.

You can forgive the past.

You can create a brand new future..

It starts with the first step

Say it:

I. LOVE. YOU.